I am so freaking tired lately. I think anxiety caused by an uncertain future has been keeping me up at night. Well, something's been keeping me up at night, anyway.

I got rejected from two of my grad schools, the last one never got my recommendations, despite one of my recommenders sending his letter TWICE. I'm getting them all emailed in and their going to re-review my ap. If I don't get in here, it's off to the work force.

I've gotten a call back from one place, a scientific staffing company. I need to figure out if I can get there by public transit/borrow my dad's car. The walk from the nearest train station is a bit over a mile, which wouldn't be bad, but there's a chance the majority of that walk might be highway.

My research is going well, I've got a bit over a week til my experiment closes out and then I just have to analyze my data and write my paper. I talked to Dr. Gaugler recently and he said it looks like I'm going to end up with a publication. That means if I don't get into school this year, I probably will next year. ESPECIALLY with recommendations from him and Banu.

I've started going back to the gym and am pretty sore from it-my quads are especially pissy. I think I'm going to go by my friend Johnny's recommendations and do mostly stuff that's with the pull bar thingies or stuff that uses my own body weight, supplemented by other weights. And of course, cardio.

I miss friends though. One has hardly been around, another is busy fucking his new (as of winter break) girlfriend. Leaves me with maybe 2 people to hang out with besides the boyfriend. It really sucks.

But I should probably go either nap or study.

Peace out.